I will give my best advice. Ask me anything. I will remain nameless. I vent on this bog. Sometimes I post my own poems.
So you know when something really good is happening in your life, and all you can think is “dear God, please don’t let me screw this up”? Like you have no intension of screwing things up… In fact maybe you’re trying a little too hard to have it not end up like your last relationship. The last relationship that tore you to pieces, but taught you to not invest all of yourself into one person. And you have grown from that. But something terrible always happens when something’s going well in your life…. And you just think “please for the love of God not this time. I hope this works out”
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.”
-Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
I still find it weird how we don’t talk about how I tried to kill myself
you have to train your brain
to see the good in everything.
But you can’t teach
an old dog
He would definitely get the message. Sometimes it’s hard to put our feelings into words… And we often find quotes, etc., that say how we really feel.
It’s better to tell him in some way rather than bottling it up and never say anything. What matters is your happiness… and if you find a quote that accurately describes how you’re feeling…then it’s perfect.
I used to be in a mentally and physically abusive relationship. And he acted like he cared way more than he actually did.
So yes. Tell him how you feel.
And if he asks “what do you mean by that?” Or “what are you trying to say?” Tell him exactly how you’re feeling.
This is the week when I have to come clean and come out of the closet and tell people who I really am. I’ve lost so many friends so far by telling them :( I’m just scared. Being bisexual wasn’t a choice, it’s who I am. I just want to turn over a new leaf. I want to be myself. I want people to know…. but I’m scared.
Actually really tired of being alone…. But I’m waiting for the right person to come along…. Struggle…
Sometimes feelings punch you in the face…. And you have to be like “Nah I’m not going to be sad… Cause I’m fucking awesome. Fuck you feelings. I’m fucking awesome. One day someone’s going to think I’m so awesome that they won’t want anyone else to have me. So yea. Fuck that shit.”
This isn’t my main page so I’m not going to say…. I’m remaining anonymous.
I’m tired of wanting the wrong people. The people who treat me like shit are the ones I date. I just want to be with the right one already. I’m sick of sleeping alone. I’m sick of being let down. All I do is take care of people and make them feel better…. I just want someone to take care of me. I want my perfect guy. The really really handsome guy with a great personality. Why can’t that love be real? Where is my Prince Charming?